I've thought alot about my Memaw today. It has been 2 months since she passed and it still doesn't seem real. Alex still talks about her almost daily, he stills calls Jesus to check on her and it is so hard to grasp the fact that she isn't here. All of her things have been sold and the house has gone on to her late husbands estate. It is so weird to think about her not living there. Here is a blog I wrote on Myspace the day she passed for those of you who aren't aware of the story. Please continue to pray for us as we still mourn her loss.
Sunday June 23, 2008
Today started out like any other day, but tonight as I reflect on the days events, I realize my family and myself will never be the same. Many of you know Clint left last Monday to go to Iowa to clean up the flood damage. So, yesterday I decided instead of going to my church this morning I would go to church with my great grandmother, Memaw. My sister and her family have been visiting out there and today was Senior Adult day and Memaw was singing in the choir. So I decide Alex and I will visit there.
My phone rings this morning and it is my sister Karen telling me she doesn't think they are going to go. She had Rick's family coming over and needed to finish what she hadn't got done last night. They were having a mini birthday party for Ella. I told her I thought I'd go anyway and she decided they still had time to get ready and she and Ella would come and Rick would stay home. So, I go to mom and dads to get Alex ready, he had stayed there last night. Karen comes by moms we get in her car and we are off.
We get to church right as the music starts, and Memaw sees us from the door upfront and just beams because we are there. She comes out and waves a the kids, sings her songs, and is smiling as she always did. They dismissed the choir and she came down and sat next to me and talked to the kids, told them she was so glad to see them. A few min. later she tells me her shoulder is hurting. She said it didn't start hurting until she came down from the choir. I told her I thought we should take her somewhere, I tell Karen to go get the car and at this point she has no clue what is going on. Memaw gets up and walks to the back of the church, they get her a chair and she sits down. All the while she thinks her shoulder is all that is wrong. Several members of the church come out and are helping her and we decide it would be best to call an ambulance. She appears to be ok other than a little uncomfortable. Alex is hugging her telling her it will be ok. Church is still going on and Mr. Homer Felts was singing special music and she had her church family around her and they were praying and Mr. Homer was singing and it was heavenly. The ambulance arrives and they load her up and leave. I drive her car to the hospital and Karen takes the kids. We get there and they come out and tell us she has had a serious heart attack and they are working to get her breathing again. I left to go get mom and dad at their church and when I get back mom goes back to be with her. Minutes later they come out to tell us she is gone.
I know the story is long, but in reality it was only about 10-15 mins from the time it started until the time she was really gone. My Memaw was an awesome lady. She had so much love for her family and her Lord. Up until the very last day she was active, she went shopping yesterday and church this morning. We lost a huge piece of our life today. I can't think of a better last day to have, she served the Lord saw us and the kids and got to see Jesus.
The hardest part was Alex, he didn't understand. We did finally let him go see her and he laid his hand on her and said Memaw you are ok now, Jesus is going to take really good care of you and I will see you later. He has since called Jesus on is play phone to make sure she is ok. Everytime he sees me crying he tells me it is ok, Memaw is with Jesus now.
I went back to see her and she was at peace. She didn't look sick or tired, she looked peaceful. I want that type of peace when I die. She lived an amazing life, she was always willing to go shopping with us, or whatever we asked her to do. She will be forever missed.
I think about all of the what ifs..... what if we hadn't gone this morning, what if we had driven her to the hospital.... We serve an AMAZING God, he cares for us and has a plan for us. He knew she would want us there, he knew the ambulance needed to come and he knew it was her day to go home. I can't think of a better way to go. Although we miss her she was with us for a long time and I will treasure every memory I have. She was 88 years young. We lovingly referred to her as "Hot Tub Hazel"
Her life was such a witness to others. She was a Godly woman and taught us so much.
Sunday June 23, 2008
Today started out like any other day, but tonight as I reflect on the days events, I realize my family and myself will never be the same. Many of you know Clint left last Monday to go to Iowa to clean up the flood damage. So, yesterday I decided instead of going to my church this morning I would go to church with my great grandmother, Memaw. My sister and her family have been visiting out there and today was Senior Adult day and Memaw was singing in the choir. So I decide Alex and I will visit there.
My phone rings this morning and it is my sister Karen telling me she doesn't think they are going to go. She had Rick's family coming over and needed to finish what she hadn't got done last night. They were having a mini birthday party for Ella. I told her I thought I'd go anyway and she decided they still had time to get ready and she and Ella would come and Rick would stay home. So, I go to mom and dads to get Alex ready, he had stayed there last night. Karen comes by moms we get in her car and we are off.
We get to church right as the music starts, and Memaw sees us from the door upfront and just beams because we are there. She comes out and waves a the kids, sings her songs, and is smiling as she always did. They dismissed the choir and she came down and sat next to me and talked to the kids, told them she was so glad to see them. A few min. later she tells me her shoulder is hurting. She said it didn't start hurting until she came down from the choir. I told her I thought we should take her somewhere, I tell Karen to go get the car and at this point she has no clue what is going on. Memaw gets up and walks to the back of the church, they get her a chair and she sits down. All the while she thinks her shoulder is all that is wrong. Several members of the church come out and are helping her and we decide it would be best to call an ambulance. She appears to be ok other than a little uncomfortable. Alex is hugging her telling her it will be ok. Church is still going on and Mr. Homer Felts was singing special music and she had her church family around her and they were praying and Mr. Homer was singing and it was heavenly. The ambulance arrives and they load her up and leave. I drive her car to the hospital and Karen takes the kids. We get there and they come out and tell us she has had a serious heart attack and they are working to get her breathing again. I left to go get mom and dad at their church and when I get back mom goes back to be with her. Minutes later they come out to tell us she is gone.
I know the story is long, but in reality it was only about 10-15 mins from the time it started until the time she was really gone. My Memaw was an awesome lady. She had so much love for her family and her Lord. Up until the very last day she was active, she went shopping yesterday and church this morning. We lost a huge piece of our life today. I can't think of a better last day to have, she served the Lord saw us and the kids and got to see Jesus.
The hardest part was Alex, he didn't understand. We did finally let him go see her and he laid his hand on her and said Memaw you are ok now, Jesus is going to take really good care of you and I will see you later. He has since called Jesus on is play phone to make sure she is ok. Everytime he sees me crying he tells me it is ok, Memaw is with Jesus now.
I went back to see her and she was at peace. She didn't look sick or tired, she looked peaceful. I want that type of peace when I die. She lived an amazing life, she was always willing to go shopping with us, or whatever we asked her to do. She will be forever missed.
I think about all of the what ifs..... what if we hadn't gone this morning, what if we had driven her to the hospital.... We serve an AMAZING God, he cares for us and has a plan for us. He knew she would want us there, he knew the ambulance needed to come and he knew it was her day to go home. I can't think of a better way to go. Although we miss her she was with us for a long time and I will treasure every memory I have. She was 88 years young. We lovingly referred to her as "Hot Tub Hazel"
Her life was such a witness to others. She was a Godly woman and taught us so much.
1 comment:
Well, I just cried like a baby reading your post. Your memaw died on my birthday. I hope I go the way she did...praising the Lord and surrounded by family! THANK goodness you were there with her.
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